My Beloved Brother, Patrick......

I used to hate my brother a lot when I was a child because he always scolds me and beat me with the cane when I am naughty. The most memorable moment is when he drags me out of the house because he was very frustrated with me back then. Then I did go and hide and I saw him trying to find me. I still fear that he might beat the hell out of me or scold me but he didn't. Actually, I can be considered as an imp. I am quite naughty when I was a kid. XD However, this shapes the image of him to me-fierce.  I was very afraid of him. I don't dare to touch his stuff and he easily pissed off when dealing with me. But that is only until around 2005, when I was 14. He seldom scold me from that year onward, actually it's rarely or none at all. Perhaps I've already grown up and more matured. 

I forgot most the time when we hang out together with his friends. How he makes me cry by freaking me out. I enjoy watching him play computer games and PS1 game like Red Alert 1, Resident Evil 2 & 3 till I abandoned my homework. Wakaka! He loves to play horror and strategy games. I can't remember well whether I peeked at him while he was playing RE2&3 or I am just sitting by his side cuz i'm quite scared of it. But he told me that I peeked at him. I still remember he will accompany me to sleep when I was alone cuz last time I was too scared to sleep alone, scared of zombies due to Resident Evil. Haha......

I look up to him a lot when he told me how good he is during his primary school and lower secondary school and he IS very good during primary and secondary school. He managed to get into Victoria Institution which is indeed a very prestigious secondary school during his time. He was very active with his scout's activities, that is why he will usually reach home around 4-5pm. I used to brag about him to my friends. His academic, his extracurricular activity and stuff. He just makes me proud of him. 


The football club he likes the most is Manchester United. I definitely influenced by him but actually I don't watch football matches regularly. Championship Manager is one of his favourite games. He bought a lot of MU's stuff like jerseys, posters and other stuff and of course, David Beckham is like his idol. He loves his country and his secondary school a lot. When we try to clean his room, we manage to found out a lot of old newspaper regarding Malaysia and his secondary school. How proud Malaysia and his school once was. Too bad it all deteriorated under some mismanagement. 


My brother taught me a lot of stuff and he also introduced a lot of stuff to me. Many of my first time were with him. First time to Singapore, first time to Burger King, first time to Tony Roma's and many more. I still remember how we used to go for vacation together, the moment we spent together. His appetite for food. I love to look at his stomach from the side cuz it's quite big. I also love to see his face while he's asleep. He tends to drool a lot while he's asleep.

The thing he likes to do the most, well, I think are eating and sleeping. He loves to sleep and he can fall asleep easily at anywhere. He introduced a lot of nice food to me. He also loves to sing and he loves pets. At one time we own a lot of pets like rabbit, dog, tortoise and fish. He did influence me a lot. He made me loves dogs as well. 

Without realizing, I inherited a lot of his habits like wearing boxers and topless while in home, studied at TARC (although it is just A-Level), the brands of clothes he likes, his way of speaking and motions, the thing he use, the way he wear his clothes, his taste for fashions and stuff, the songs and artists he likes... Yea, and of course, the way he cooked his Maggi mee... It is just pure tasty. I still remember I try to learn how to cook it, but I just can't cook the same thing. In the end, I asked him and he taught me the way. Like my cousin said, it is the ultimate way, for me. Some people may find it too salty cuz we just put like 250ml of water or less to cook it. He cooked our dinner last time and it's real nice as well. =) His fried rice, chicken rice, 烧肉炒豆腐, these are some of his signature dishes. He likes Andy Lau 刘德华 the most. Others include the late Leslie Cheung 张国荣, Jacky Cheung 张学友 and Jay Chou 周杰伦. 

He is also very funny, all those jokes and stuff and we like to prank on each other such as pulling his pants, he farted in front of my face by aiming his butt to me. XD I still remember one of the funniest thing bout him is that there is one time the house phone rang, but I keep searching for it and I couldn't find it, in the end we found out that its under my brother's fat ass =.=ll and we LOL! And of course, his dirty jokes as well. He doesn’t know Mandarin, so sometimes he will pronounce it wrongly. However, he manages to sing Mandarin songs almost perfectly.

I try to follow his footsteps. In the past, I feel like he is very pro in everything. But as I grew up, I eventually surpassed him in terms of academic. I managed to get 12 A's in SPM and he is extremely happy and proud of me. I still remember he posted it out, "I'm very proud of my brother". For the first time I feel like I finally got acknowledged by my brother. After I finished my A-Level, I further my studies at UTAR and I got into NTU, he persuaded me to go to NTU and I did make up my mind to go to NTU. But when I heard his friends and colleagues said he was very happy about me and he loves me a lot, I just can't control myself from feeling like crying.

He is a person who gives priority to his family and other people before himself. He wants to save the best things for his family. Life is unpredictable. Who would have known that my parents divorced. I understand that this incident hurt him a lot. The death of grandmother and my pet dog Speedy are also some of his most sorrow moments.

Even though he passed away, I really really miss him. How I hope he is still alive, living with us... Chat with us, have dinner with us... When come to think of it, my brother did love and care about me very much. When I was a kid, he will buy the things that I wanted like sweets, chocolate and ice-creams. He usually buys souvenirs and presents for me. I didn't realize it. I was like just take it for granted. I am very regret that I did not cherish my moment with him. I wish we have more time together. Although few days have passed after his death, I still cannot accept that he actually passed away. Nobody can accept that. His death is too sudden.

Many people mourned and cried for his death. His friends told me that he always thinks about other people first before he think bout himself. Almost all his Singapore colleagues came for his funeral. I am very grateful to all of them. At least I get to know that my brother is such a fine man. I am very very proud of him as his brother. He is a good friend, cousin, son, brother and would-be father. Ah Fai, please, rest in peace. Don't worry about us, all of us will take good care of your wife and your daughter. I love you... And farewell, my brother......